We were playing loud music in our system "livin la vida loca..." and that exactly was how my life has been last couple of months. Crazy. Adi started school in April, his physiotherapy is now more rigorous. Most probably the next academic term he will begin badminton (he cant wait). Kathir is helping Adi as much as he can, sitting with him, accompanying him to physiotherapy, in general just sticking on to him like a leech. Kannamma does beyond what she has to do for us, she's family. Lastly yes.. KP. He's doing good, he now has a work life balance (he nurses his garden!). I'm so glad for him and inwardly excited to be visiting him next week!
My life in general is crazy, juggling between the boys, work and home, but life is exciting. We have some new routines (like mandatory dine out Thursdays, early morning cycling on Saturdays) and try to snuggle excitment amidst a pile of chaos. So yes, I'm all set to leave for Atlanta, all shopped and packed with the help of the girls of my life. Shravya and Geetha are in India for the vacation. Dee invited Adi, Kathir and Kannamma to spend time with them but Adi and Kathir refused because Adi doesnt want to miss his therapy.
On one side, I cant wait to get some fresh breath, I do feel guilty to say this, but I think I deserve this. On the other side, I'm going to miss the boys and Kannamma. The last months has brought us closer than ever, every single movement of our routine is a combined effort. Yes yes not dwelling on it, what do I have to complain, I get to spend time with KP! I feel like a school girl these days, butterflies in my stomach. Too many songs playing in my mind but this one tops the list "avvaaru nokkinaal evvaaru naanuven kannadi munnindru paarthukonden".
On the contrary, what if I dont feel anything at all when I meet him? I will go with my vibes, let me not overthink. I close my eyes and I see a flash of KP the last time we were together. I get goosebumps instantly and smile. Everything is going to be okay. Days pass, and I'm here, waiting to get down from the flight, a million questions in my mind, and yet my feet taking me forward. I collect my luggage and push the trolley forward, loading my entire anxiety on it. As i walk out of the gate, it was not hard to spot him amidst the crowd. Wearing Hridhay's bottle green shirt, he stood out, an aura around his head, and the twinkle in his eyes intact as it was six months back.
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