This memory is from last year, this date, the 12th of December. When Narendra Modi and I almost together celebrated 200 days. I was quite proud that morning, the race was going steady, just a little hiccups, but okay we were fine. The routine was not any different, the same bp checks, pricks....
200 days was a big milestone for people like us, who were made to lie down against gravity. It was past the golden 28wk mark, that my gynaecologist Dr.S kept telling me from day 1, that we would be out of danger. Funny though, I thought I would deliver on the 26th January and mentally made a countdown starting that day.
So are you still wondering what was special that day, beside that being thalaivar's birthday? There was one reason. That day was when I overcame my guilt, my failure, for not having carried our babies with care. That day, I felt my heart lighten, not that i had achieved anything, but I had made an effort, I had made amendments, I had given up everything and just lied down within four walls battling an endless wait.
Little did I know that day, that the countdown timer had already started, and there were only four days to go.
Thank you for making me feel good about myself - although I failed, I strongly believe today that I tried.
Cheers,
Hopie
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